When I heard about the airplane shot down above Ukraine, I felt an almost physical pain. I think it was the smiling faces of the victims on the news, pictures of scattered teddy bears and guide books to Bali that made the situation almost unbearable. The images of sunflowers and blue skies looked idyllic next to the mangled remains of what used to be flight MH 17.
After a few days I had this dream, or vision, where people rose like angles from the sunflowers and into the arms of the Godhead or Gaia. I am not sure how these pictures entered my mind, but they did, and I would light a candle and actively try to visualize how all these lost souls found their way home in peace and joy.
I drew the image, and then I started to make a ceramic plaque – just to strengthen the vision and make it as real as I possibly could. I wanted to use the image to give more power to my prayer.
This is the start;
I got stuck while making the angels…I spent several days trying to create these symbols of resolution, willing ‘a happy ending’ upon an intolerable situation.
But it felt wrong. I made so many different versions of angels and they all looked Disney-fied to me. They were almost cute. Beatrix Potter meets Meinrad Craighead. I felt uneasy and spent days just walking around hating my work. I could not understand why. I was praying with images, after all. Why did it feel so false? Where had my sense of purpose gone?
Then I sensed the anger and the fury and the confusion emanating from inside those fields in Ukraine. Again, the sensation was almost physical.
I realized that I had not been listening properly; I had been trying to force a neat little conclusion on to an ongoing situation by turning all these people into happy little Spirits, flying up and uniting with the Great Goddess.
I don’t know what happens after death. But I have a feeling that life may go on much as usual with challenges and bewildering situations. I feel that the anger and the fury still rages among the sunflowers. But the Goddess is there. She is always there.
So, this is how the plaque ended up looking for now. It still needs to be fired and glazed.